Hey Y’all
I think I will start out this email by writing the lyrics to the 3rd verse of Sister Johnson and my Pleasanton song. We wrote these last night and they perfectly describe my week.
Verse 3:
Sometimes we get into a rut
And get very very stuck
Or else were flying on a roller coaster ride
But on the scriptures we will feast
And our prayers will bring us peace
We’ll turn to the Lord; the Lord is on our side
Chorus:
Pleasanton is full of Lessons
We’re learning the ups and downs of life
We’ll stand firm in unity
For this is where we’re called to be
We’re becoming better mothers and better wives!
So if those lyrics didn’t give it away then let me spell it out for you- my week was full of: ruts, getting out of ruts, lots of ups and many many downs. It was another rough week!!!! But as the lyrics say- we are learning lessons from all of this. On Tuesday after district meeting Sister Johnson called President- she was lost, she had no idea how to help me get out of my rut, so she called president for help. Well guess what President said- “Let me talk to Sister Kleisler!” I thought the man was gonna slice me into pieces, but nope he was very loving and patient and he told me to grab my scriptures. He said we were going to have some companionship study on the phone. SO he told me to look up Moroni chapter 9. He explained the back story on it all- Mormon was writing to his son Moroni and telling him about the wickedness of the people. He was telling him that the people were so far gone that it was ridiculous! Then president told me to read verse 6 to him. In Moroni 9:6 it says “And now, my beloved son, notwithstanding their hardness, let us labor diligently; for if we should cease to labor, we should be brought under condemnation; for we have a labor to perform whilst in this tabernacle of clay, that we may conquer the enemy of all righteousness, and rest our souls in the kingdom of God.” So then President asked me- what does this mean. I was like um…. He said it means KEEP GOING!!! He said that Mormon just talked about how awful these guys were but then he says we must labor diligently. President then went on to tell me that everyone gets in ruts. He said that he was coming out of a rut himself and he read that very scripture earlier that morning in his personal study. He said it helped him out. I then told President that I didn’t believe that he could get in ruts- He is President, to me he is Superman! He then went on to tell me about his rut. Then he asked me how I get out of ruts. I told him I didn’t know. He said that wasn’t true cause he knew that I have had many ruts before, my mission has been full of ruts. So then we went on to talk about the things that can get you out of a rut and again he turned to scriptures- this time to Moroni 6:4 which says “And after they had been received unto baptism, and were wrought upon and cleansed by the power of the Holy Ghost, they were numbered among the people of the church of Christ; and their names were taken, that they might be remembered and nourished by the good word of God, to keep them in the right way, to keep them continually watchful unto prayer, relying alone upon the merits of Christ, who was the author and the finisher of their faith.” So then he pointed out the three key principles in here –Studying the scriptures, prayer, and the sacrament (The relying on Christ part). He said if I were to do those three things then I would be able to get out of my rut. Now those things seem really simple but guess what, I can testify that they work. President told me that the gospel in NOT complicated!! He was right, It is almost a week later since I have put those things into practice and I am now… out of my rut!!! Yay, but now I am on a rollercoaster! Ha ha I am up and down. But that’s ok because President told me that it is all for a reason. I am learning how to deal with life in a very intense 18 months out on the mission. President has told me a ZILLION times that my mission is going to make me a better mother and a better wife someday. I finally realized that this week. President was right, my mission is making me better! Sometimes I think my mission truly is for me, not for the people I teach. Sister Johnson and I were talking about that the other day and we came to the conclusion that Heavenly Father doesn’t need us. He is doing us a favor by letting us serve as missionaries. I mean honestly he is God, if he wanted the whole world to be converted he could easily do some much grander things than send out 19 and 21 year olds two by two. No, he has sent us out here for us- to help us to grow. The mission is a construction zone!!! I am under construction out here and I am growing to become a better person. It is HARD and it is INTENSE!! But it is a blessing!!! The Lord knows who I need to become, I just need to have faith in him and HOLD ON and as Mormon says- Keep going!!!
I want to leave y’all with my testimony. I will tell you that missionary work is the HARDEST thing I have done in my entire life! It truly is a roller coaster!!!!! Ups, downs, ruts… you name it! But it is the best thing ever FOR my life. As I am along for this ride I am growing closer to my older brother Jesus Christ. I know that he has felt every pain that I have felt. The disappointment of a person turning away from the gospel, the feeling of being stuck in a rut with only a puddle of investigators to teach, the feeling of frustration that you can’t keep your emotions in control and just be happy. All of these feelings and many more are things that I know my savior has been through, and he didn’t do it just because he was told to, he did it for ME!!! He did it cause he loves me and wants me to return to live with my father in heaven again. I know that the way that we can return is by standing strong in this life and turning to the gospel to help us. That is why we have a prophet today on the earth. He is here to lead us and guide us, to give us the extra help that we need to get back to our Father above. I know that Thomas S. Monson is truly a prophet of God and that he receives revelation directly from God. I know that we can find true happiness through the gospel of Jesus Christ. It isn’t instantaneous and it isn’t easy, but it is attainable!! I am so grateful to be out here in the Construction Zone because I know that my Father in Heaven is molding me, he is smoothing my rough edges and teaching me the lessons now that I need to know to help me for the rest of my life. What a blessing it is to be a member of Jesus Christ’s true church! How thankful I am to my parents for raising me with this knowledge and never giving up on me when I went astray. I want y’all to know that I LOVE MY MISSION!!! I have gone through some extremely tough times, harder than anything else I have ever been through in my entire life- and you know what, I wouldn’t take it back for anything!!!! Not anything!!!! My mission is for me and I am under construction- and for that I am eternally grateful!
SMILING ALL THE WHILE
Hermana Kleisler